Ok, so a few months ago, I was tired of the old blog template. No longer was I fan of the name, “Think like a woman, act like a man,” and most of my posts throughout the years had related to being a grad student and then starting a “career.” After throwing off my long sought-after career and experiencing an odd combination of upheaval in both my romantic and personal life, I retitled the blog, “Adventures with Toto” because I was midlife and feeling a little lost. Giving myself and Martha the new, shiny names of Dorothy and Toto made me feel like I was opening a new door and moving in a different direction.
Have you ever seen The Wizard of Oz? Dorothy spends the movie trying to find her way home, and in the end learns that she has had the power to go home the whole time. And I dunno, but that’s kind of the point that I reached one day. I’m still figuring out the bill-paying portion of my life, but when I look around, I realize that I have a wonderful group of friends, a great family, the best dog ever, and have created a pretty happy life. Sometimes you just have to take a long walk to realize it.
So I’ve change the blog, yet again, to reflect this and gone back to being Ana and Martha once again. I’ve updated the sidebar a bit and added a few new blogs to the blog roll. Plus, for the first time, I've actually got the guts to put a picture of myself in the header. It's kind of a dream to write this blog one day and not worry about it being found by employers or mothers or ex-boyfriends or anyone else. I feel like I'm moving towards that.
In addition, I’ve reposted the first blog post written when I started the blog seven years ago. When the blog got popular during law school, I took it down, because I thought it revealed too many personal items. After reading it the other night, I realized that although it is somewhat of a grammatical nightmare, it’s a pretty good description of who I am: silly, melodramatic, searching, loyal, rambly, publicly emotive, and ridiculously sentimental. I haven’t always embraced these qualities in myself, but age tends to make one a little more accepting. Hopefully I'll be making more posts like it in the near future.
Thanks for reading.